Raccoon karaoke

[badgerbag]

Went out w Rook, wiredferret, Squid, divalea, & co for Thai food downtown and then to Martuni's. I knew I didn't want to go to the bar at all but figured I'd go for like 20 min, then leave. (I have to be sort of forced to do karaoke, have had my fill of rock band, not fond/dislike 'lounge music' and show tunes, was exhausted and cranky and hurty and worried, can't hang comfortably in most bar environments ie crowded and high chairs/standing up, am half-deaf anyway so can't converse well in that environment. Kept thinking "I wish I were lying down. With my book. In total peace and quiet. With an electric blanket. Where is my Internet. Hey, I wonder if there is an open source version of del.icio.us I could use for work" and then realizing I should be smiling appreciatively of the music.... or talking to someone... trying not to look all constipated and like I wanted to flee. I kind of thought of Chulita and her frequent nervous desire to flee a social situation and realized "Oh, this must be that feeling!"

My hands hurt so bad all day. Also knees and feet.

in the car on the way up talked over the politics of groups, ethics, exclusion, deciding to de-friend someone, setting limits, honesty, whether things are refreshingly honest or passive aggressive or self righteous over-virtue and over-honesty for the sake of maliciousness. Talked about kids and sex ed. It was a good and intense conversation!

I wasn't loving the feeling of having to be back in the wheelchair though it has its perks of zooming down hills and around corners with the centrifugal force making me think of playing crack-the-whip while ice skating. Everyone else had a blast so actually... i was happy to just slip away and go home to lie in bed with a book. Only regret, not seeing Rook go and camp it up on the little stage with whatever his tune was. It was hilarious and lovely to hang w wiredferret and divalea (who i had never met in rl before and who was SO GREAT and made me a little homesick for texas the way my friend SuperT does) and I think the conversational highlight besides jen m.'s comment about not wanting to have a kid born with a fork in his head (ie while she had an IUD in) and all the other highlarious iud-talk ... well, the funny look on jen m.'s partner's face when wired said something about her partners and d. was talking some smack also and someone said "Poly wanna cracker?" and wiredferret went "Poly want a piece of ass!" with matter of fact bubbly good cheer. That was all kinds of awesome as it was clear she meant it for real and not as a snarky joke. Gosh I love her!

I feel kind of like i used to be one way socially and I have morphed a little. i am less good as social glue or connecting people. i am just less bubbly and fun. I don't think people really mind that much. it is only me who is a bit lost.

Had the strong feeling driving home like i loved everyone... but was still a bit alienated... I thought over everyone who had been at dinner and all their qualities and how loveable they are.

sleepily (and hurtily) talked sf and politics w zond-7 in bed, which was comforting for my slight feeling of social alienation

6am this morning woke up to insane chirring! Scrabbling, tumbling, chirring, crazy growls! It was a mom raccoon and three baby raccoons trying to climb up the porch, the fence, the trellis, and go over to where the lemon tree is across another fence. The baby raccoons kept falling down. I felt for the mom raccoon who had to keep climbing down and encouraging the littlest one -- but whenever she did the other two would try to follow her and would often fall down again off the trellis. I tried to wake up Moomin to see. Then I fell asleep again after maybe 1/2 hour of raccoon watching. Fitful sleep with dreams!

I dreamt there were a big raccoon-washing nature park a block away from my office! Wholesome teenagers in wetsuits were playing with the raccoons, grooming them, and washing them in little portable sinks!

Then I was awake again very grumpy at everyone being noisy...

Then dreamt again that raccoons were on our front porch trying to come in, like over-friendly stray cats.

I took painkiller lastnight and still woke up very achey. It was the arthritis-type of aching with cold. Electric blanket helped, as did moving around gently for about an hour before really gearing up to do anything. Rook drove Moomin to camp and Zond-7 helped me fold a ton of laundry and put it away.

Work was okay but somewhat frustrating. I got sidetracked like 10 times from the thing i set out to do for the launch because of debugging. And, probably, just exhaustion. Now i will have to work tonight or tomorrow morning. Oh well.

my head hurts! i never have headaches! really too tired to deal with life very well, at the moment!

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[wild-irises.livejournal.com]

By the time I read this post, I'd been to karaoke for the first time (not my thing, but okay enough, and occasionally truly entertaining) and come home to scare a raccoon out of the cat food.

Eerie coincidences ...

[wiredferret.livejournal.com]

Aw, shucks.

It was a great evening, and I was thinking at dinner how you were sort of the commonality that got everybody introduced around, all these people who so obviously had a lot in common, and yet how to we find those people of our tribe except by connectors?

And I still can't think of how we met. It's very odd.

[badgerbag.livejournal.com]

You know, that is a very nice thought and it is true, Jen and Squid met through w00lfcamp which I organized, I got Squid blogging in the first place, also i introduced her to divalea. Jen M. and she met through parent autism group things in our district. But you are right and it's heartening - though I feel like i am less sparkly lately, it is nice to think of functioning as a connector over time. It is something I really like to do, to introduce people who are fabulous to each other!